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It all started with just way too many.
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Squash.
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I got pregnant with Zoe when I was 19 and I had her when I was 20,
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after her first birthday,
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I left her dad and I left the city that we lived in and we hightailed it
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up here to Indianapolis.
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And I have been raising her by myself since then when Zoe was
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a year and a half old, I made $12,000. And I was by myself that year,
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the statistics of, of, you know,
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single parent households who have survived any kind of violence,
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don't create hospitable conditions for the
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most part for children, um, or for their parents.
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I think that there were specific conditions of our life that, um,
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you know, would have,
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would have changed so dramatically if I had been caring for two
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children. And I, you know, I think about that quite often,
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when I think about people who can't leave unsafe situations or who,
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for all of the reasons that they have can't win the conflict
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of wanting to keep children, um,
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and not being able to our house was kind of filled with all of the mixed
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emotions of grief, you know, I think shock and anger and a,
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a lot of fear for me, marginalized communities, um,
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women of color, trans people, um,
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and people who don't necessarily have, um, equitable medical access,
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right. Were gonna be the first people that were damaged by, by that decision.
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You know, survivors of sexual assault, people who are young, like Zoe,
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people who are young, like I was, um, and people for whom, you know,
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there's a degree of social support that's lacking or, um,
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any kind of like cultural or social dissonance where like the stigma of being a
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single parent or the stigma of not wanting a pregnancy to begin with is really
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hard. It gives me a, a sense of fear. Um, you know,
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not only for the safety of the people who I'm close to and in the proximity of,
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but, um,
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for young women and young people who are capable of getting pregnant,
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like trans people and gender nonconforming people who, um,
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who are now kind of like being told with this message,
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that they don't have self sovereignty, that they don't have autonomy,
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that they are not valued for the decisions that they can make for their own
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body. And I worry about people's like access to joy, right?
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If you're making decisions based on, um,
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what's criminalized about your body and what's not, this is, this is,
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this is very complicated. Um,
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and the decisions that you make are a lot different, right?
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When things feel criminal and when, um, the government gets to,
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you know, provide kind of surveillance over, um,
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who you love, how you love,
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the ways that you love and the ways that you access support when things, um,
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aren't what you want within your own body.
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The true Testament to whether Indiana wants to default to what's always been
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comfortable, are not,
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I have a lot of fear that that's gonna be the case that we're going to see,
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you know, women and trans people not being able to access abortions.
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This isn't gonna end abortion at all. This is gonna end the legal,
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uh, the legal application of good care to people's bodies.
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This is not going to stop. This is not gonna stop doctors.
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Quite frankly,
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this isn't gonna stop people from moving to different cities to be able to
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access care.
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What this is gonna do is this is going to bottleneck insurance companies,
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and it's going to put children in danger.
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And this is going to, um,
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destroy the mental health and wellness of people who own, you know,
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a uterus and have the capacity to get pregnant.
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People who already knew that they weren't valued within policy and legislation.
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It's just gonna reaffirm what people have always known, which is that, um,
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our, our lives and our health and our safety haven't mattered
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enough ever.
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As a person who has had sex before. Um,
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and also a survivor of sexual assault and also
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a daughter of a mother who has had an abortion for their
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own safety and mine. It's, it's really infuriating.
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Um, and it's saddening. Um,
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it is, it's not even that it's a right,
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it's that this is none of your business.
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If you do not have a uterus.
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Abortion is a human right. Abortion is harm reduction, abortion,
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um, creates, um,
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the ability for children to live good lives. Um,
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AB abortion is not anything political.
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Um,
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it is an intimate conversation between what you believe is right for yourself
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and your capacity to take care of a child.
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And I think in a state where children <laugh> are being funneled
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into the criminal justice system and into systems that are
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already not supporting them well enough that this kind of decision isn't going
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to do anything for Indiana's children,
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except tell all of them that they matter even less.